I don't really know how to describe what i'm feeling like right now. i guess some of its just boredom, but so much more of its some deep hurt that i'm feeling right now. i don't know, but for some reason right now i just want to curl up and cry. I think it partly has to do with the fact that me and my mother got into another stupid and completely pointless fight. I just fele so horrible around her sometimes, like i feel as though i'm worht nothing to her and always wrong with her. But whats worse is that i feel as though i hav eno one to talk to about these things,i know i have friends and for that i am so grateful, but i just wish that i someone could talk to me and help. because everytime i talk to her or am even around her, my mother, i can always slowly begin to feel my self worth and love begin to slip away.
And at times it hurts so very, very much...

But somehow, just somehow, i know that it will all be okay and that in someway through Gods help i can rise above it all.

I just wish that in the meantime, it didn't hurt so dang much.